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"Bed" Music Video, Lyrics, Song Meaning

Hello blogisphere - this epic post today is going to be bursting with all manner of useless talk about the song "Bed", the video for which releases today!

I'm going to talk about the song writing, the song meaning, the musical influences, the lyrics, and a bit about the film making process - so hold onto your hat!


Bed is a deceptively simple and direct song. It’s the hardest song for me to write/talk about - Bed is about trying to dilute how depression feels into simple, understandable statements. It’s taking a giant, horrible complex issue and breaking it down as a means of explaining it to someone who doesn’t understand - all done to a deceptively cheery back drop.


Musical Influences - Bed is a lot like the first songs I wrote. When I was 14, and writing lots of sad teenagey songs, they were fairly basic melodies with heavy themes and pretty chords and Bed is technically a mixture of a lot of my older tunes that basically no one knows like “She Never” “Angst” and “Always” - It sounds pretty and girly and not that a big a deal unless you’re actually paying attention. The bulk of the song is based around one chord shape with a changing bass line, but the top notes stay the same - it’s like a play on a typical pop punk riff formula except it’s full chords. This gives it this weird cheery poppiness that offsets the dark nature of the lyrics. This is probably the simplest song musically on the EP.


Song Meaning - I have a long struggle with mental health. Primarily my issues are based in anxiety - depression is more of a occasional life long flirtation than a permanent state for me but it definitely lingers around the corners. A few years ago I had a very rough patch of living both at my parents house and at my girlfriends flat - I was half in one and half in the other. I couldn’t get a job, I was essentially nocturnal and had a very hard fight with depression that lead to me going onto anti-depressants. I wrote Bed at the tip of when this all started, you could say it was a bit of a warning sign - I had started to really struggle but wasn’t 100% aware of what was happening to me, so I just wrote a song that explained how I felt, with no grand statement in mind. It was months later when I realised what it the song actually meant - and it took me saying out loud that I no longer wanted to exist to realise the full extent of my problem. This song was so easy to write, and came out very easily, and to me it was just a cathartic song - I never realised the impact it could have on others, or what the song was really saying. It is probably the most powerful song I’ve written, and I had no concept of it at the time - but I suppose the best, hardest songs are like that right? I doubt John Lennon wrote ‘Imagine’ and intended it to be as poignant and huge as it turned out to be.


Lyrics -

I don’t want to go outside

I don’t want to sleep tonight

Oh I don’t want anything


I don’t want to say hello

But I don’t want to watch you go

I just don’t want anything


I just want to stay in bed

I just want to stay in bed

That’s all I want


I don’t want to see the sun

I don’t want to see anyone

I don’t want anything


I don’t want company

But I don’t want to be alone with me

I just don’t want anything


I just want to stay in bed

I just want to stay in bed

That’s all I want

That’s all I want

That’s all I want

That’s all I want


Well sometimes I don’t want to live at all

But I don’t want that curtain call

I just don’t want anything

Now I may barely be alive

But I sure as hell don’t wanna die

I just don’t want anything


I just want to stay in bed

I just want to stay in bed

That’s all I want.



Music Video - I had wanted to do a music video for "Bed" from the beginning of the EP recording process. Some would argue "Break" or "Saturdays" would be better single choices, but "Bed" to me is the biggest siren for what the EP is really about. From playing it over the years, quite a few people have spoken to me about the impact the song has had on them and it's given the song more importance than I expected when I wrote it - so I felt it was the right choice of single, because it could potentially help other people.

Through my job I met Simon Regan, a film maker and photographer based in Cardiff who does phenomenal work. I informed him of my EP and casually mentioned wanting to do a video but not being sure where to start, and he told me he'd always wanted to film a music video and would love the opportunity to test the waters together. I readily agreed!

Simon had a few concepts for the video and his idea initially for "Bed" was a top down shot of a bedroom with me lying down and playing. I was initially cautious because of my own insecurities about my weight (which we then actually infused into one aspect of the video later on) but I realised that to get the message across, to be honest and direct about it, that I needed to put my own issues aside. The idea evolved into showing different elements, through the one bedroom, that can either cause or be the result of mental health struggles. We discussed a variety of themes and on the day of filming we tried out a variety of different scenarios.

The purpose of the video is to be direct about facets around mental health - damaged relationships, debt, addiction, self abuse etc. I would argue this isn't for people who have depression, but for people who don't really understand it. It ties well into the song because the song is supposed to be a direct "This is how it actually feels" description of how depression messes with your mind and causes you to self destruct.

I'm personally very happy with the video, and I hope people understand the point we're trying to make. Simon did an absolutely amazing job - and didn't get mad when I smashed glass all over his studio (whoops).

You can watch "Bed" right here!



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